When I first thought about getting pregnant, the thought of quitting my job seemed unbearable. My job was everything to me (except for my husband of course) and I couldn't imagine how mundane life would be if I ended up leaving teaching to become one of those "stay-at-home moms" I so openly pitied. Even after I had Autumn, I had moments where I wished that I was still in Orem so I could continue teaching part time. I really missed it a lot.
So a couple of months ago when the opportunity to teach online math and reading classes came up I thought it would be the perfect opportunity for me. We've been looking for ways to save money for the future and I felt certain that a little bit of work was exactly what I needed to keep me from being completely sucked into the world of dirty diapers and nonsensical baby babble.
Well I finally started teaching my first section this week and I am quickly realizing how spoiled I have been being able to be one of those "stay-at-home moms." I am only working 4 hrs in the evening for 3 days a week and I am struggling with being away from Autumn and Dillon even that much, even though "away" simply means in the other room. Pathetic? Probably. I'm sure I will get used to it with more time, but it is definitely helping me realize how much of a blessing it is that I am able to be home with my baby and that I have a husband who supports me in my desire to do so. He knew it would be the right decision for me even before I did.
It also makes me so grateful for my own mom who worked while we were growing up, but still managed to always be there for us. It must have been hard for her, much harder than my measly 12 hours a week I'm sure. Three cheers for mommies.
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